Life continues as it was, work is going well, and I've having great times with great people. But if I've learned one thing, it's that you can't rely on anyone but yourself. And it sounds bitter, I know, but I speak with sincerity and fondness. It was important for me to learn that you can only count on yourself to achieve your goals, happiness, and desired existence. The other night I experienced something I never really wished to, and I dont want to say it was life changing, but it was definitely eye-opening, in a more real and scary way than i wish to say...regardless I am stronger, more focused, and more attune to the harsh reality of myself, my relationship with others and more importantly the understanding of myself as the basis of these relationships with other people. That probably makes no sense to anyone else, and maybe it's long-winded and dramatic, but there it is. I feel fresh and confident and clear and focused on the what and who, where and when and the why of importance in my life... on another note, i've got lots of words and ideas in my head waiting to be put down on paper, so if you're interested be looking for them. Also, i want to talk about the amazing book I'm reading and my awakening on a conscious level, but i'll save that for another time